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Obstetrician Appointment

This week has seen my return to work. I have been busily preparing for the new school year, ready for some eager brand new little Preppies to arrive on Tuesday. While I did not physically move any furniture (I got a Teacher Aide to do this for me), I have been more active than usual. Most nights, I would be exhausted with my muscles and back cramping lots. Its probably no coincidence, that on Thursday, my spotting increased once more. The result of doing too much work, or perhaps something was wrong with my two strong babies. I did not know. At last, I had had enough, and booked an appointment with my GP on Friday morning in the hopes of seeing an Obstetrician that day and getting some answers.

My GP thankfully agreed with me, and gave me the referral to an Obsetrician in Bundaberg, and when I rang and explained my situation with the spotting, they were more than willing to fit me in straight away even though they were completely booked out. We had heard from my GP that the Obsetrician I was to see is very good, but his wife, who runs the admin side of the practice is much to be desired, and she was absolutely right! I am not entirely sure whether I will keep seeing this Obsetrician, but I am glad I was able to see him given my situation and provide me with some answers.

He re-scanned me, and once again, both babies are healthy and growing ahead of their gestational age. On Friday I was 8 weeks exactly, baby A measured 8 weeks 3 days, and baby B measured 8 weeks 4 days. Their heartbeats were now 171bpm, a huge increase from our last scan back at 5w 3d when they were only 114 and 115 bpm. The Obstetrician assured me that both babies were healthy, and he also found the source of my spotting, there is a gap in my cervix which indicates a possible tear. It measures 0.7mm. He said the only thing to fix it is to go on complete bed rest and be reassesseed in 2 weeks, to see if it has healed. He said it is fortunate it is not affecting the preganncy. I got a doctors certificate, so now I will no longer be able to start school with my new Prep class. I feel terrible as it is these kids first day of school and they should be starting it with the teacher they will have for the rest of the year (well half the year, given I will need maternity leave!). But at the same time, I know it is completely for the best, as I need to heal and there is no way I could do that if I was working. I also don’t want anything to jeoporadise the twins and having a healthy pregnancy with 2 babies in my arms at the end! I am happy to finally have some answers, but am a little upset with how I was treated.

The Obstetrician made me feel guilty for being so anxious, even after I had told him of our history of miscarriages and the 5 rounds ofΒ  IVF we have done. You would think he would have some compassion, but basically told me to snap out of it. His wife was much to be desired also. She filled out a request for me to have more procedural bloods done, and I told her I had already had some of the tests done already through my fertility clinic, and lets just say she was not very friendly or willing to hear it. So I had to just give in and have all the bloods done again. While I appreciate the Obsetricians expertise in being able to find my problem, I just don’t know if he will be the right one. I’d love to use him, as it would be a little closer to home rather than sourcing one in Brisbane and having travel copious distances again like we did with our IVF treatment, however, I know I need to be comfortable, confident and have compelete trust in my Obsetrician. I am booked in for another appointment with him in 2 weeks time to see if my issue has healed. So I have between now and then to decide whether to use him or someone else. I know I want the best care given that we live in a regional area and don’t have access to high quality medical care, and given that I have already faced so much limbo already. So it may very well be back to the drawing board. I still can’t believe we have come this far, and got to the point of deciding on an Obsetrician, I thought this was a day that would never come!

Look how much the babies have grown!!!

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Update

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My HCG levels have risen from 15 490 last Monday to 62300 this Monday. My clinic were more than happy with that rise. The question remains, why did I bleed and pass clots over the weekend? Did I miscarry one baby? Are they both still okay? The question remains unknown until next Monday when I can have a scan with my FS. My GP didn’t seem interested in rescanning since my levels have risen. The wait continues! I will have a repeat HCG on Thursday to make sure levels are still rising. Given the levels are getting quite high now, I have read the HCG tests will soon become an inaccurate guide as the doubling rate begins to slow. I don’t want to waste away the last week of my holidays, but come on Monday!

I have continued the bed rest given the spotting still continues, and am
beginning to consider whether I should go back to work at all. I have a few very high needs, undiagnosed children in my class this year who will be challenging physically, so don’t want that to risk this pregnancy further. So much to think about and hopefully next weeks scan will confirm good news.

Most Amazing Day of My Life

Yesterday was the most amazing day of my life.

7:50- Left home in a half asleep state to make it to GP appointment on time.

9:00- Made it to GP appointment in Childers. Expressed concerns of being in limbo land. Got a referral to have an early scan and repeat HCG BT to ensure levels rise from yesterday.

9:30- Make the further 1/2hr drive to Bundaberg and relax at my parents house for a bit while we wait for scan appointment.

12:00- Make our way to scan appointment at the radiology place. Begin to feel highly nervous. My life depends on this. Last time I had a scan I was told “sorry, there’s no heartbeat”. Have an abdominal scan and transvaginal scan with the lovely dildo camera. The ones they use at our clinic all the time! Locate 2 gestational sacs, 2 yolk sacs and 2 heartbeats!!! Twins!!! Happiest moment of my life!!!! A grin from ear to ear, can’t stop smiling!!

2:30- Have to wait until 3:00 to pick up results from the radiology place but they message me earlier saying they’re ready for collection, so make a mad drive back to Childers by 3:15 to have follow up appointment with GP.

3:15- Results indicate my ovaries are still highly stimulated from the IVF drugs and full of large follicles. There is fluid in my pelvis and pouch of Douglas (as a result of the OHSS), and there is a twin intrauterine pregnancy measuring the correct size at 5w 4d. EDD- 3 September, 2015 (The Day after my Mother’s Birthday!) The extra fluid and swelling may be causing the spotting and cramping. There is no subchorionic bleed.

3:30- Make our way back home and get more sleep in the afternoon.

9:00- Sleep through until 9:00 the next morning!!

Oh my goodness!! Still can’t believe there are twins! I hope they will continue to grow and hold on until our next scan with our FS on the 19th. I’ll be 7w 3d then. I’m even more terrified! Twin pregnancies can be higher risk, and often deliver premature. We have a long way to go!

Today the spotting has returned after it had completely tapered off, and I have a really odd feeling between my uterus and bowel, which brings pain when I walk, laugh, move too much. I have a feeling it’s the Pouch of Douglas which was referred to on the scan results. So I’ve been completely debilitated and on bed rest today. Troy is doing a wonderful job of taking care of me. I just hope the twins are ok! My HCG results went up from 15490 to 17800 overnight, so I really hope everything is still ok with the babies. These results do bring me a huge relief that I am in fact pregnant, as previously I didn’t believe it and I was more than positive I would miscarry with the bleeding, spotting and cramping I experienced over the weekend. I still don’t really feel pregnant. The lingering OHSS symptoms probably don’t help the situation. All I really feel is extreme tiredness.

Here’s our babies at 5w 4d.

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Limbo Land

Welcome to limbo land.
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A place where the future is unknown and you can’t move on with the rest of your life until it miraculously and with time sorts itself out and becomes apparent of an outcome. A place where you are unable to focus your mind on anything else but the “what ifs” and all the different outcomes that may eventuate.

This is the place I am, limbo land.

Today I had a repeat HCG taken at my clinic expecting it to drop majorly since I had a bleed and cramping over the weekend.

Since last Tuesday, my HCG levels have risen, yes risen, from 1670 to 15490, which according to my clinic is spot on. I’m stunned. I’m confused. I don’t know what to think anymore. I thought I knew my body and what it was doing. But it appears i have no idea.

I still haven’t gotten excited, and remain cautious. The spotting and cramping I have been left with terrifies me. Even though the spotting has eased considerably, I still feel quite crampy. I’ve never had it before, but then again, I’ve never had a successful pregnancy before either. So how can I make such assumptions. The clinic has taken me off the pessaries now too, as my progesterone levels continue to shoot through the roof at 1032 today. I’m worried. That ceasing the pessaries may increase the bleeding more. The clinic don’t want anymore bloods for 2 weeks! 2 weeks until my FS returns from holidays. 2 weeks until my first scan with my FS when he returns. I have calculated today (for the first time) that I am around 5 weeks 3 days. The clinic has also recommended complete bed rest until things settle down.

I am seeing my GP tomorrow in the hope that she may monitor me more closely and allow an earlier scan to check the location of the pregnancy and rule out any complications like ectopic pregnancy or a blighted ovum. Bearing in mind that every time I need bloods or medical attention, it involves a car trip to the nearest medical facilities at a more populated town, not our tiny regional town that is incapable of dealing with me. GP is 1 hour away, bloods 1-1 and a half hours away, FS clinic- 4 hrs away. Lately it feels like we may as well live in the car. But I am so grateful that Troy can be my own personal chauffeur and assist me while he is still on holidays. I still have no pregnancy symptoms. In fact I think they’re easing even more- my breasts feel nowhere near as sore.

My Acupuncturist did an anti-miscarriage treatment on me today and she has given me a new batch of the anti-miscarriage Chinese herbs to take again too.

I feel as though I’m a bad mother and not giving our tiny baby the recognition and love it deserves. I do love our tiny embryo to bits and just hope it can stay and Mummy’s heart isn’t broken again. I was all prepared psychologically and emotionally for a pending miscarriage. Here’s hoping this little fighter can hang on and make 2015 the best year yet.

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